Exhausted….It isn’t enough to describe the state I am going through right now. I am exhausted yes, this tiredness is beyond physical tiredness. It’s psychological, it’s emotional. I am tired of being strong. I am tired of trying to put on that smile on my face every day of a strong woman and be the Super Woman for anyone and everyone. I am mentally tired of everything and everyone. It’s draining me out emotionally and spiritually. I find myself in a pool of self-absorbed emotions that I can’t even share with my closest friends. I spent too long denying my own feelings and now I feel like I am the one who is unraveling. I had to learn to become strong because no one was there for me to hold me when I needed to be held the most through my hard times when I literally felt like giving up on everything. They see me as competent, but my soul is exhausted —on the inside, I am completely breaking day by day. I feel like I have spent my entire life trying to prove to myself that I am strong and being strong would be enough for me. But now I am completely exhausted from inside out. When you’re always the strong one, you’re very cautious about giving your problems to anyone else, you tend to suppress your feelings, desires, and emotions just for other’s sake. And the people who are usually so busy looking after others don’t always go around asking for help. They just assume you’re doing good when you’re not cuz they have always seen you as a strong person. Truth is that the strongest one ends up needing someone the most. I used to tell myself to not let anyone in or let them know of my struggles, But I have come to the realization that is okay not to be strong all the time. I had the belief that those that are strong, they don’t feel like they have the space to have a weak moment. Now I have found myself exhausted from running from my need to be vulnerable. I long to be taken care of, to be held tight, to be told that I mean something to them. There’s nothing wrong in craving for someone to hold you, to take care of you. Sometimes I feel too much and sometimes I feel nothing at all. Yes, I am continuing to be strong but my soul is getting exhausted. #Creatorshala #Fashion #Blogger #Creatorshalablogger #Creator #Photography #Influencer #Fashionblogger #Love #Instagram #Contentcreator #Makeup #Beauty #Style #Creatorshalainfluencer #writer